so i am deciding to grow down. down and away from the things i should be embracing because today, now june ninth two thousand eight, today i do not want to grow up.

today i want to be thoughtless and careless and happy and free.
i will grow up next week.



next week i will solve my epic internal battle and figure something out but today i will paint my fingernails orange and organize my desk, even if it happens to be just after midnight and i have many plans for tomorrow.
this is because i have decided i am trying a bit too hard to learn how to grow up and not letting it come naturally.
so i will grow down before i grow up.

it makes more sense in my head, so i will flow with the go.